Fuck this shit

Desperation in the making

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Ik i havent used this account in forever and nobody cares because its whatever and all the shit I went through was forever ago so it doesnt matter anymore.

But I spend so much time. Telling people it gets better. Life goes on. Telling them that I’m okay. That I’m good. That I dont need help anymore.

But Idk if thats ever going to be true. I mean. I have this amazing boyfriend and hes my world and I have just. The best most supportive best friend in the whole world and I’d die for her in a heartbeat.

But I still. I just.. I still feel broken. Like a year ago when my best friend walked away from me she took this huge part of me and its a year later and it fucking hurts. Its like I can still feel a knife sticking out of my chest and I’m bleeding out on the floor and it fucking hurts so bad and I just

I want to get past this and move on and stop missing her and just i should be over this. And I dont want to just rehash and rehash and rehash with my friends because ik how sucky that is when someone cant stop talking about shit that is completely irrevelent.

Idk.

I just feel fucked.

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IMO

I think people are too quick to judge. Today I was on instagram, just chillin and stuff, checking out a few of my favorite minecraft accounts. And out of nowhere all this hate on kids who cut comes out of nowhere, why? Because one of the girls in the community admitted to cutting. She had some posts about it and people thought it was excessive.
Well you want to know what's excessive? Feeling so horrible and so badly about yourself, and not knowing how to handle it or deal with these overwhelming feelings and it getting to the point where you hurt yourself. I think that's disgusting that people don't know how to treat someone in that kind of pain.
The worst part is they're calling this girl out by name. So when a few of us stepped in to do some damage control? They told us we were making it about us and tried to pick a fight. I seriously am in amazement about how horribly the human race treats itself.
And what about people that can't help it? What about people that have imbalances that really can't be fixed? What if she isn't to the point where she realizes she needs, or even wants help? Someone enlighten me. Please.

Filed under selfharm self harm self-harm cutting cuts scratches instagram pixelperf minecraft ig community text post mc ig hate rant depression sad human race whats happening to us disgusting enlighten me recovery hope angry upset ranting long post help get help

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Rawr! Hey guys. Long time no see. I've left this blog inactive for a long time while I tried to get my life together. I'm proud to say today is one year since I've had issues with my ED, it's been 4 months since my last suicide attempt. And 8 months since my last self harming. I just wanted to take a moment and say that, as clichè as it sounds, life goes on and things do eventually get better. My blog is changing now. You'll see a lot of my thoughts as I go through the day, pictures of me and my friends. Milestones, and things that I want to save for later on. Chin up darlings. Keep moving forward. And to those of you starting this new journey with me, welcome.

Filed under suicide eatingdisorder eating disorder ed anorexia bulimia ednos cutting self-harm self harm chin up darlings la dispute recovery life is good lets hear it for life love rawr hai :3 hehe my life life quotes silly things friends starting fresh fresh starts milestones

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suicidal-lust:

depression—hurts:

poni3s:

disintegrated-shards-of-hope:

we-cant-all-be-strong:

whenever i see pictures or posts about her i cry because she was gorgeous both inside and out and even though i never knew her, she is in my heart everyday
e-n-d-l-e-s-s-pain:
this girl’s gone and i think it’d be nice if everyone could reblog this no matter what kind of blog you have in her memory because she deserved it, she was the nicest girl ever, and it’d just be plain disrespectful if you didn’t reblog this

rip liv <3

some people won’t even reblog this because “it doesn’t fit my blog” “ugh i can’t let my followers see this” “idgaf”. please don’t be heartless and reblog. i know you have a soft side in you. RIP Liv 


Black and white depression, self harm, self hate, eating disorder blog; posts may be triggering xx

suicidal-lust:

depression—hurts:

poni3s:

disintegrated-shards-of-hope:

we-cant-all-be-strong:

whenever i see pictures or posts about her i cry because she was gorgeous both inside and out and even though i never knew her, she is in my heart everyday

e-n-d-l-e-s-s-pain:

this girl’s gone and i think it’d be nice if everyone could reblog this no matter what kind of blog you have in her memory because she deserved it, she was the nicest girl ever, and it’d just be plain disrespectful if you didn’t reblog this

rip liv <3

some people won’t even reblog this because “it doesn’t fit my blog” “ugh i can’t let my followers see this” “idgaf”. please don’t be heartless and reblog. i know you have a soft side in you. RIP Liv 

Black and white depression, self harm, self hate, eating disorder blog; posts may be triggering xx

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